I have no idea. What I'm striving for now wouldn't matter if I was to die tomorrow. I wouldn't want to spend my last day operating on someone. I wouldn't want to be in school. I wouldn't want to be a Nurse or a PA for a day. What would I want to do? I don't think I care enough for anyone to spend my entire last day with anyone. I guess I would just lay in the grass watch the stars and wait for death.